Things do change

It's funny how things change when you get older. I really don't care about much of anything these days. My family, music, the friends that I have left, art, crafting... things like that haven't changed and still remain vital to my everyday life. But I just feel different. High school was such a useless experience for me. I still feel scarred by it. I still wish I could change some of the things I did, some of the things I didn't do. I miss my old friends. I miss the people that moved away. I miss the people that hate me for reasons that are probably my own fault. I have a wonderful life, I have a wonderful family, I have a few wonderful friends, but something still feels missing. Oddly enough I'm ready for next semester to get here. I need to feel like I'm being productive again. I just need to feel something, anything...